My World

Jia you Cindy!

2010-11-13T00:11:00.004+08:00

First time kanna scolding from her and first time see her so angry till her face turns red. Her face like wants to cry too.

She keep saying what happen if she not here. If she not here then depends on us already.

When she keep saying, in my mind I was thinking why would she not around, she everyday come and work and always work so late.

After her scolding we work together as normal, we joke and at the same time continue working. But did not expect that she apologize to me. Haha.

After hearing what my best two colleague say about her, I understand her reaction today. She is worried and scared. When I heard it, I got a bit sad and a bit emo, main emotion was worried for her. Wanted to send her msg but after remembering that they say cannot tell anyone, so I was thinking that she also does not wants me to know about it.

All along, she treats me very good and teach me alot of things. I treat her as my elder sister.

Hope her operation goes well and see her again at work.

2010-10-10T21:14:00.001+08:00

Easy to find other people mistake but hard to find your own mistake 因為當局者迷

10th April

2010-04-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

Today I sms Yan Ling if she can come on 10th April for Kbox, and she said that she can make it. Haha!! Very happy to hear that. Now everyone can come except for Michelle.

Saturday Yong Sheng told me that Michelle might not be able to make it on 10th April as she has fashion show to run, then he asked me if Michelle did contact me. I told him that she did not contact me therefore he said that maybe Michelle is doing arrangements. Today I called her but she did not pick up my call. Really hope she can come, really scared she tells me she cannot come, this will really makes my heart breaks.

My wish is everyone can turn up for the Kbox on 10th April.

My Evaluation

2010-04-05T21:51:00.002+08:00

I passed my Evaluation Test!! I'm so happy!!!

Had took the test on thursday April fool. I took the second time then I passed. I really passed it, I really so happy. But more test to come, after evaluation, still have basic and final test. Taking driving license is like attending education from Primary to Master/ Degree stage. Haha

Thanks Liang Li for not bringing arrows on that day.

Forgive and Forget is the nicest thing in the world

2010-04-05T21:47:00.002+08:00

Forgive and Forget is the nicest thing in the world.

What happened with my classmates reminds me when I was in Secondary school. Accuse, scolds someone online. Secondary school was friendster(should be, can't really remember), now is facebook. Haha. Anyway, what is over already over, everyone is classmates again... This time round I was not involved, just feel sad that this happens but is also a bless things as they understand each other better.

The Cheque

2010-04-05T21:43:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I thought I had lost the cheque, called Zens and helped me to check if is in the office, she even called Carolyn and checked with her. I sms Wendy(my boss) to open another cheque for me, and she agreed to help but definitely I have to pay her the penalty charge for canceling the cheque. To my surprise, just now at around 9.30pm, I found my cheque. It was slot in the planner. I immediately sms my boss and called Zens and let them know. Luckily my boss have not cancel the cheque yet, tmr can deposit immediately. Anyway, the cheque was meant to deposit tmr cause tmr start lesson in the afternoon 3.30pm.

2010-03-30T22:49:00.001+08:00

In life, don't underestimate anyone and don't look down on others.

KaiJi

2010-03-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

Here I come again

Movie

I watched the movie "Kaji"about 2-3 weeks ago, I have draft it in my hp but I forget to blog it. This movie tells me not to give up things easily. The other part that it tells me is not to believe people easily.

Asking me not to believe people easily, is really difficult for me. I really don't know how to differentiate good and bad or can be trusted and cannot be trusted. I am type of people must hit the nails then will feel the pain. I have been through where people really cannot be trusted but I believed people do change for the better. Like what people always say," Treat people the way you want to be treated" and "put yourself into other people's shoe". If I want people to trust me, I have to trust people. I still believe everyone in the world will feel lonely one day after "fighting" for whatever they want, in the end, they still want to be loved, to be trusted.

29th March 10

2010-03-29T21:54:00.006+08:00

There are so many things in my mind, I shall blog it so that it will not leave in my sub-conscious.

Artist/ Actors' Blog

I don't know how people, like my friends, find artist or actors' blog. But recently, I have found one, found it by myself. She is jessica Liu. I like her acting and her. Almost all the drama that she had acted in Singapore I did watch. I really like her alot.

Another 2 actors who are models as well who I also like are Jiang Yi and Ke Huan Ru. I did talk about this in my the other blog.

Keep hearing CoCo Jiang Yi makes me think of CoCo Li Wen lor.. I rather hear Jiang Yi than CoCo.

MRT

Today when I was on the way home, I saw a girl crying in the train. It happen when Nicole alight the train. This is was standing at the pole and moved to a corner when Nicole alighted. She squatted down and cried. My heart wanted to approach her to ask her what happen, anything I can help but in the end, I did not do that. I saw her quite moody in the train but I did not expect her to cry. Really feel pain for her. Hope that girl, will be fine.

Can't Wait 10th April to come!

I have call and text Michelle about 10th April Kbox. Haha. The first one I informed Yong Sheng and followed by Yan Ling. Both of them I told them in msn. Haha, really can't wait 10th April to come. I will inform Mei Bao and Liang Li when I see them on thursday. Really, really hope to enjoy kbox with these 2 groups of friends together. First time asking friends who don't know each other to meet up together. I mean first time quite a number of people as Mei Poh and Michelle already had party word together before le.

I am so Sorry!

Tasha invited me to her birthday party but I did not go due to working. Heard from Nabilah that day only 5 ppl turned up even Nabilah, herself she did not turn up due to last min have something on.

Hope to leave by April

I hope I can leave PA job by end of April as I really really can't cope with my assignment and my study already. I need some breath.......

PI lesson

Today attended PI lesson but whatever Dr Christopher Fong said in class, I don't understand at all. He even said that will come out for exam, I feel so stress lor.. Assignments most of it not complete, really really very stress......

Searching Myself

2010-03-15T23:53:00.004+08:00

Actually I do not need to change myself, I should say I need to find myself.

Myself meaning: My soul, my personality, my character.

I am I, I will do what I like. I must get rid of fear. What do I fear of? Why am I afraid of that person or people?

I must search for all these questions in order to "change myself", to improve myself for better.

What Makes Me Like Them

2010-03-06T00:32:00.003+08:00

I just went yahoo and youtube and search about Ke Huan Ru. I like her acting in dou niu yao bu yao. I have finished watching the drama quite long time ago and wanted to look for more info regards Ke Huan Ru but I forget.

Another actress that I like is Jiang Yi. I saw her acting in angels lovers and hotshot.

The main point is what makes me like them so much? What attraction do they have for me to like them so much? Isz their elegant, their qi zhi?

I am not sure if Ke Huan Ru is that famous or not. I know only that she actually had been doing advertisement(should be la). She only acts a few drama and in metor gardens I did not manage to recall her in that drama. But anyway I just like her.

As for Jiang Yi, ya she is elegant and have qi zhi. She is actually a model but few years ago she started to act and I find that she is not bad. Ya, I also like her.

I hope I can continue to watch both of them acting. I hope both of them can continue to act.

勇敢

2010-03-04T16:54:00.003+08:00

對，就是勇敢。是我對感情不夠勇敢。

是我不敢面對。不管是友情還是愛情是我不敢去面對。因為害怕離別。離別的傷痛。。。。

But no matter what, I am glad that I have two main groups of friends that I am close with, that I like the most.

They are Michelle, Yong Sheng, Liang Li, Mei Bao and Yan Ling.

Same Soul, Many Bodies

2010-03-03T21:48:00.004+08:00

Recently I bought a book title Same Soul, Many Bodies at San Bookshop located at Lot 1.

I like this two quotes:" The physical life is meant to be enjoyed. This is one reason you have been given the senses. Be good people. Have fun and enjoy yourselves. Enjoy the simple yet abundant pleasure of life while not harming other people or other things, like nature.''

and " 'Be good people' meant to be compassionate and caring at all levels."

I don't really know why I like these two quotes maybe is because I feel that if the world is like what these two quotes mentioned, there will be less violent and I also hope that my world have no mask.

I really really likes these two quotes.

1st March

2010-03-03T21:25:00.003+08:00

1st of March, went to have dinner with Yong Sheng and Michelle.

We went to Blk 532 and have curry fish head. I was quite surprise that Michelle suddenly wants to have curry fish head as the wether is hot and normally she will be at restaurant.

We ordered black pepper deer meat, scallop, hot plate tou fu and of course curry fish head. We had laughter and fun and we were very very full. We even ordered 2 drinks each too. Haha.

After that we went to Yishun, Northpoint. We went into Xin Wang and continue to chat and cut cake. It was just a small and rectangular cake. Michelle and I took picture together. Think this is the only picture that we have taken, I mean just the 2 of us picture.

When I saw my picture in my laptop, I was wondering when will I be able to take picture with her and here I am managed to have one. Haha. That day I was not working and therefore I was quite energetic. I was able to talk, chat and laugh together with them. I am really really very happy that day.

Luckily Yong Sheng arranged 1st march and able to celebrate her birthday as she is flying off today(3rd march).

I would like to apologize to Michelle that I should not have said that we just met two months ago and that day don't meet is okay(I think i did say that don't meet is okay).

What a day

2010-02-22T20:39:00.003+08:00

Today is my first day of my course, psychology. It was fine in school and I managed to get to know new friends. They are a group from professional cert to diploma. They are quite fun and humor. They are like my ITE classmate, IQG.

After the orientation, I went to meet Mei Poh for lunch as I was hungry and my dad actually asked me to eat before going home. We went to eat Long John Silver. When we going to start eating, my godmother Lay Hong called up to me and said that to meet outside as she is meeting Doris maybe at AMK Hub or J8 shopping. I told her ok.

At around 6.30pm, my mother called up to me and said that someting corp up in the house and wanted me to go home fast. I told was like normal things like just wanted me to go home early or she quarrel with my dad. So I sms my godmother that I can't meet her. I am a bit sad that I can meet her. But when I reached home, it really changes my mood. My grandmother was sick and so called to my xiao gu to come to my house and bring grandmother to TTSH but xiao gu called 4th aunty.

4th aunty was at AMK Ave 10 to ting ge tai. When she reached my house, she saw grandmother lying on the bed and feeling cold. She asked why did not call her, why wait till so ill then call, people no need to work ar. After that she called xiao gu and said that she needs to go TTSH. Therefore both gu gu will be meeting each other at TTSH. Before 4th aunty brings grandmother down, she quarrelled with my father and said alot of nasty things.

Grandmother already sick still quarrel, grandmother is also her mother why must she do that? Even though she is married off but grandmother is still the one who bring her to this world. I really don't understand.

Although aunties and uncles did suggest to bring grandmother to old folks home but my father rejects. This has been put away.

I know, to take care of old people is not easy, but the way that my 4th aunty said is really very irresponsible. She has no kids, in the future if she is the age of grandmother how she is going to survive? But really lor, quarrel in front of me and grandmother and said those nasty things is really spoilt her status as my gu gu. She really should not do that lor. 3 words to describe my 4th aunt and my father la, bad temper people.

感觸

2010-02-19T21:59:00.005+08:00

在自己的人生裡，自己是主角，很多配角經過自己的生命，自己的人生。他們都在你的生命裡流下了腳印。自己也是配角，也經過他們的生命，他們的人生。不管如何，都不要有遺憾和後悔。

My Father

2010-01-31T22:27:00.002+08:00

I HATE MY FATHER!!!

Why do I have this kind of father? 大男人又自卑。脾氣又不好。He also not a gentleman.

I did think of him pass away, then my house will be very quite. How nice would that be.

But haiz, I can't choose my father but I can choose my partner, my future. My father has only one good point and that is he is a filial son, towards his mum.

Chatting on the phone

2010-01-31T22:19:00.002+08:00

Talking on the phone with Liang Li yesterday night reminds me of talking to Michelle.

How long have we not talking on the phone at night for long hours?

Michelle and I can never be the same again.

Many things have change. Environment, time and many others have make us different.

Or Isz now I have negative thought again? Whatever it is, hope is not because of our last time "unhappy things" that makes her don't talk xin shi with me.

Birthday

2010-01-15T18:33:00.002+08:00

On 8 Jan, actual day of Mei Bao. Liang Li and I went to search for Mei Bao's birthday on the 7 Jan. We went high and low searching for mei bao. Finally we manage to buy a dress for her at One Loft dress shop at Far East Plaza. We also bought Yan Ling's present as well. Both presents are fantastic.

When I saw Mei Bao wore the dress that we bought for her, she looks great in that dress and really suits her. For Yan Ling's present, everyone of us were so high. Haha. I really like the first expression that is on Yan Ling's face. Cythia, Alicia and Mei Poh were also shocked. We bought Yan Ling a red sexy night internal "dress" haha. Dun know how to type. Gosh, I should have take picture of that present for Yan Ling. Haha.

We have fun on that day, not sure of Alicia, but at least most of us did.

Yesterday Michelle, Yong Sheng and I went to Wheellock to have dinner in a Japanese restaurant. Had a quite heavy dinner till I very full on the way to night time. Then we went shopping and went to Xin Wang at Northpoint to have a drink and continue to chat. Hope that I did not spoilt the both of their mood as yesterday I did not talk much to them due to tired. Now I know what does Michelle means after work if going out only body with no soul, haha, must be like yesterday of me. I am still glad that I went out with them as I am really happy lor, haha, dun noe how to describe la. Michelle say I fat le, which is true la, fat at stomach.. Grrrrr....

Yesterday after my work, I went home, I was still excited to meet them can't wait for the time to pass faster, but when reached the meeting time I start to be tired le.. Really hope did not spoilt Michelle's mood as Yong Sheng is ok la when I msg and apologies to him. Haha. Next meeting time will be Yong Sheng's receiving his salary. Haha....

What does best friend means to you?

2009-12-03T22:11:00.002+08:00

Today I am so interested to this question:" What does best friend means to you?"

I went out with Jac today. We went to eat breakfast in KFC and chat while eating. This question just pop out and I and her had diff definition. To her best friend must least contact almost everyday or at least once a week. For me, I feel that since is best friend means we are very close so have problems then find best friend and ask each other out once in a blue moon is ok. She say I have old thoughts, then i told her this is mature thought. She say I am very random when comes to contact. When she was almost going to give up on me, I contact her. Haha. I don't know how to type la. Sorry.

For Jia Wen, for her have problem or no problem must contact, share problems and meet up when free. The purpose is to maintain the friendship and Jokes.

So what does friendship means to you? I really want to know. Haha

My Plans

2009-12-02T23:08:00.004+08:00

My plans for next year 2010

1) Study psychology in MDIS

2) Learn golf

3) Saves $900 for that year.

My plans for 8 years time, age 28.

1) To have at least one condo

2) stable/fixed career

3) to have a car

2009-04-23T23:16:00.004+08:00

明天我的弟弟就要去basic training for his NS. 我捨不得他。

不只道沒有他的日子會是什麼樣？

2009-04-03T17:07:00.001+08:00

After knowing that i can't get into poly somehow my feelings is down. Don't know what to do and how to do. Feeling disappointed in myself.........

I am Just a normal Girl

2009-03-11T19:25:00.002+08:00

I am just a normal girl who also wants to be loved and being care by others.

However i also know that dun because of lonely or wanted to forget ur ex partner and get someone to be ur gf/bf.

I know the difference between LUST and LOVE...

2009-03-04T20:17:00.002+08:00

I die le. LOng time did not have this failure feeling. My accounting, Cash Flow and Cash Budget, i dun noe how to do. I need someone to guide me all the way. Haiz, What am i going to do?

Monday exam le... die die die!!!!

2009-01-28T17:26:00.002+08:00

Today did not go school as not feeling well. I had not feeling well for about 1 month. I wanted to go see doctor before the cny but thinking is jus normal coughing and running nose so forget it, dun waste money but since yesterday i was coughing very badly.

This morning put down the phone without listening to Mei Bao's call. I dun noe wat happen to me, this is my first time treat her like that. I know she will be angry, unhappy cause no one will want others to being treat this way.. I am really sorry! Sorry Mei Bao

2009-01-24T23:28:00.003+08:00

Long time did not do thorough housework le, today i do feeling very enjoyable.

Cleaning cooking stove, wall tiles, etc...

Mei Siang msg me i ask who to Jason's house on Feb 7......... Seriously i dun know who else i should ask.. To me is the common ppl lor.. Michelle, Yong Sheng, Steph me and her lor.. That is wat i reply her but any got to ask steph cause she is the one who suggested it out when we were in the bus on our way home...

Tmr going out wif Mei Poh to buy clothes and shoes....

I say out and 'replied' him back. I know i shouldn't do that my i just can't control my anger...

We went out to eat together. I am the last one to finish my food and i agree that i should not talk when eating but can't just he wait for a while more only and i am not talking to any other person, i am talking to my mum. My mum did not say anything, she even talk to me... SO... What de big fuck he think...

Seriously, i dun noe if i still treat him as my father... Ya, i know that he has a strong pride and he is da nan ren but i just can't stand him... I understand his situation but so what, he deserved it. I was mopping the floor and there is a few patch which is difficult to mopped away and my mum asked to use my leg strength by stepping on the mop head and mop it away i tried then don't feel like trying anymore so pass it back to my mum. In the first place i want to sleep le, just that saw her doing wanted to help ma then ended saying me playing, i mean my dad who said me only know how to play... I shout back by saying, FORGET IT LA, I AM NOT HIS DAUGHTER... This is my first time saying that i am not his daughter.. Is like the whole day whatever i do he got NEGATIVE comment lor... damm it man..

Feeling Stress

2009-01-22T21:07:00.002+08:00

Final lap le before leaving ite. I want to go poly but heart still in slacking and playing mood.

Account is ok, believe i can do it but thinking of audit, i really really very scared.

I promised " someone" that if i cannot make it i will give a sum of money to this " someone".

He is just wanted to give me some push as i am the type that need someone to push or stress me then i will do it but haiz...

Dun know how to study Audit....

WHO CAN HELP ME???????

How to Treasure Friendship

2009-01-19T00:43:00.006+08:00

After reading Yong Sheng's blog i was thinking Jun Jie 有什麼魅力？

What i know is that he is kind, generous, knowing what he wants, knowing where he wanted to go and knowing what he wanted to do....

He and Yong Sheng initially weren't that closed after almost everyone left mac. What does he do to make everyone so treasure him? I really really want to know the ans... Even my godma, lay hong as compare he and she is very much more closer than she and me... haiz....

Jun Jie and Yong Sheng, what about me and michelle?

In school, Mei Poh is consider very close to me... We shared lots of things. But maybe cause our age is the same ba, ... dun know how to say...

All along, i really hope that i can have an elder sister to like take care and look after me. I really took michelle as my sister but in reality she does not need to do all these to me. Ya, she did advise me... i still remember her last day at Am10... Chin Leong and Yee Siong guard the entrance to prevent anyone disturbing michelle from talking to me. She told me she 最不放心我，要我專心讀書。 That time i was happy but sad as well. Happy cause she care about me, sad is she is leaving but anyway that is already the past le... The only thing that bother me towards michelle is that incident that happen between 2 of us and jac, hope she can forget it and she and i can go back to the past.

Think i watch too much drama le ba.. A few drama shows two friends wif the same gender but diff age is so close together.... Care and think for each other so much......

2009-01-19T00:16:00.006+08:00

Quite a number of events that i haven post. Farewell dinner, sending flight, Mei Poh birthday, mds party, our gathering wif pass am10 ppl..........

Today not going to sleep le, wanted to type my blog....

Event 1: Farewell Dinner

2 Jan last min for me la. Ai Tze called me and ask me if i will be free to meet up in Am10 for jj farewell. I say ok. We went to AMK Ave 4 there, opp Mayflower Sec to eat sea food. Soh Huay, Lay Hong, Doris, Angeline, Ai Tze, Sirlou... First time not because of meeting meet up with the Angeline and stayed till late night... Still waiting for Angeline birthday cause send her a card to thank her for been there for me b4 i left AM10.

Event 2: Sending Flight

last min for me as well. That day i was working, last min msg godma if she is sending him off den follow by Doris... That was my first time seeing jj so blur. He told us that he is boarding at 10 pm but end up is 8.15pm.. Luckily we went off early reachin airport is just nice. Took few

pics ... That night i was thinking, since he went off le, den maybe i replace him to accompany them... that's what they say too but seriously i dun know where to bring them... JJ normally where u bring them!!!??? Haiz... but till now haven do it yet.. havin acc ca.....

Event 3: Mei Poh's birthday

Mostly is organised by Cynthia and Alicia. We went to Park Mall de fish & co to celebrate.

She was being sabo by doin all the dare created by Cynthia and Alicia. But firstly is the crew asked her to Stand up on the chair to blow off the candle, den follow by their sabotage. She was tearing off her present that had been wrapped by 20 layers of newspaper.. There are 5 dare for her to do. The dare are to take guy's number, to kiss guy who we do not know, to sing on the stage for us, the other 2 i forgot le. Oh ya i haven pass her the b'day card that i wrote for her personally. I wanted to write wishes for her on the big card created by the 2 girls but last min they change their mind as they wanted to laminate it so told her thru fone but cause the msg was so long so i keep it very short as Cynthia was the one who wrote so dun waste her energy and time.... And thru fone can't hear properly... Haiz...

Event 4: mds party

nth much to write there actually.. Jus listen to our results, our objective for dec and tis year....

Haiz, dun noe wat to type la, i forgot already.

Event 5: Gathering wif EX am10 ppl

I am the one who organised this. I started planning in oct though is like a bit kiasu but luckily i did that lor. I msg everyone total of 10 ppl. Jason, Michelle, Terance, Steph, Yee Siong, Alice, Yong Sheng, Mei Siang, Rong Cheng and including myself. In the 1st place alice told me ok but ended up not ok. Yee siong can't make it on the weekends, Jason last min baby fall sick and Terance's assistance fall sick got to cover he/her shift, steph dun wan to turn up but last min being forced by me.. haha.. Luckily i did not put too much hope on this gathering as from the past experience, alway get disappointment only so this gathering i am quite happy la as did gather a bit lor... We celebrate the Jan baby( Yong Sheng and steph). We went lao beijing to eat den we went for K...

Type on monday in the first place as that day not going to sleep wanted to type out but i manage to type out one blog only.. This blog was being deleted half-way while typing, make me so angry so today den continue....

Please Dun Anyhow Think

2008-11-19T22:53:00.004+08:00

Today did not go school as ytd did not sleep well. My skin irritates me. Mabel gave me a morning call but i wanted to sleep a bit longer after that go bath den go school but i oversleep so decide not to go school as wanted to sleep(rest). Mabel Called me again and i said that i no going to school den she ask if i got go K at 2pm, i say got cause Cythia will not be happy if i did not go. But later around 11am, i msg cythia that i will not go den she reply, pay her 10 bucks tmr.. i dun know y did not go mux pay but anyway, she did say to me before la so k lor, i dun mind paying cause she did tell me if nv go muz pay.

In the morning Mabel was like not happy as did not go school still got go K but in the late mornin she called my house phone but sound happy, dun know y..

Mabel: Sorry did not realised that u called me on Sunday cause if i know u called me, i will call back to u de. Sorry...

This morning thought of dying cause really suffering for me. Had so call a dream of jumping down from my house outside and jus yi liao bai liao... It made me feel so relief/ relax when i had that thought... but i can't...

I do have run away from problem(s) b4 but after that i will go face it. Running away will not solve the problem but we are just human being. Asking me face with so many problem though at different time but i will still feel tired and afraid. I still will run away from problem.

I hate myself, i do want/ like suffering....

What Actually Do I Want?

2008-11-14T19:42:00.003+08:00

Dun know what happen to me... Suddenly feel very moody.

Haiz, thought of Yan Ling having 2 jobs just to support her family and herself, then wat about me? Who am i supporting? Myself? Ya, maybe.....

Just now had msn with my cousin who is only one year older than me and now she is studying in university. My goal is to go ploy. She do not have financial problem and her family financial is quite stable. She has one elder brother and one elder sister, to me she like has no problem.

I feel that i am quite useless, i hate to be at home, seriously, because of my father who always shout when he reaches home. My mum is the one who is really tired. Early morning wake up at 4am den go to work, reaches home at around 5.30pm and got to help my father to do this and that, i hate my father at times. He is the one that brought himself to this state but my mum got to suffer. I only know how to be jealous of my brother who can dun help and will not get scolding or nag by mum. My mum's elder brother knows that my mum is bias towards my brother, had told her but she deny.

Dun know la, sometimes my mum did treat me well but... Anyway, this is how family is, u feel that parents are bias but sometimes u feel that they are not...

I just feel that i should not be calculative towards my brother. If i am not calculative, maybe can help decrease my mum's burden. All i can say is i am not a good daughter.

Now i only hope that i can go ploy and further my studies and get a good job. I had the urge to tell my rm not to put me to work from december till my grad in ite. I want to focus in my studies. I want to stay focus. But think is impossible

2008-11-13T19:28:00.003+08:00

I find it meaningful so i put it here

Love is patient and kind.

Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.

Love cares more for others than self,

doesn't want what it doesn't have,

doesn't force itself on others, isn't always "me first".

Love is not irritable,

and doesn't keep score.

It is never glad about injustice

but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.

Love never gives up, puts up with everything,

always trusts, always looks for the best,

never looks back, but keeps going to the end.

Love never fails

2008-11-13T01:27:00.002+08:00

Today and Monday did not go to school.

Monday did not go school is because i not feeling well. I did go see doctor and get MC but is at night den go. However, in the afternoon, i cried when i want to reply my father, i do not know y, is been a long time i did not cry in front of them le.. Is just out of sudden that i can't even control furthermore is like out of control.... I dun even know that i want to cry...

As for today, i overslept. I wanted to go see doctor just to get a MC but sky keeps raining heavily made me dun and can't go out...

Had been thinking, why am i working so hard for wat and for who... I do not have off days as Monday to Friday schooling, Saturday and Sunday working, some days after school got to go work too. I not enough sleep plus not time for my own leisure... Really really dun understand.. Now my goal is to go ploy as is my final lap towards my goal but what i am doing now did not meant for my goal.. really questioning..

Ask raymond for permission not to work on sunday as going to my uncle house.. Haven ask yet. going to

AM10

2008-10-13T20:42:00.000+08:00

AM10 is a Mcdonald that locates at Ang Mo Kio Ave 10. There is also the place where i started my first job. I have been working there for 4 years le.

On the September 28 is my last day at AM10 cause transfer to AMA4 le. I will never forget AM10 as tat is the place where i got to know michelle, jac, steph, yong sheng, lay hong and ect...

It contains lots of laughter, tears, stress, tired.... Really can't bear to leave... I was promoted to FM in March 07...

Wanted to say Thank You to Angeline for the pass one year almost two years that she had done for me but however dun have the chance as the ambiance is not right... Think i will write a card during her birthday wishing her happy birthday and Thank her for everything ba....

17 June 2008

2008-10-13T19:59:00.000+08:00

Above pic is liang Li 's birthday, cause too busy, tired and lazy, tis pic had been in my draft for long. I will just post it up...

2008-06-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

Last week is my busier and happiers week. My whole week is fully packed.

Let me start on the 17 june, liang li's birthday. I called and msg mei poh but she did not respond to me. I thought i and her had another misunderstanding but luckily is i any how think. She was sick therefore.. Cynthia called me and i told her that i can't reach mei poh but she could reached. Then after that we joke and talk crap. Cynthia, Alicia and i went to entertainment centre to meet Mei poh but the person that we dun like to see also there wif her. I played one round of pool wif her den after that not long we went to liang li house. We waited there for quite sometime finally jane and her group finally reached....

The celebration starts around 8pm. Mei poh brought a candle that will not be blown off easily.

We passed the candle to ivy, her elder sister-in-law. She is a friendly person. Liang Li got to thank her as we did not do any physical sabo (smash cake on her face) etc... We only sabo her by letting her blow the only candle that will not be blown off easily...

At around 10pm, almost all of us went to entertainment center and play pool..........

Lost Our Way

2008-06-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

People tend to lose their way easily, especially in love relationship. Easy to get in but hard to get out.

Outsiders really can't do much to help those who is really hurt. We can only try to accompany them, let them have something to do so that they don't think of their "injury".

It's really pathetic to hold on to something that is not coming back. But one thing that everyone needs to remember is that never ignore those who really care for u.....

My Group(sis)

2008-06-01T14:30:00.000+08:00

I had talk about Mei Poh in my blog before, jus only one year and i feel that is terrible as jus one year ppl can change into such a difference.

I had sent her a msg before. The msg goes like this: Really dun know how to help u... U shouldn't be like this de lor... Last time de ni is not like tat de... Now ur heart ur centre is all him. No interest in doin ur study and work le. Not forcusing on the right thing... Tink of ur own future prospect... Future is ur own. Mabel jia you.

Really really, now and her past really really change quite alot...

Another person who had change her "attitude" is liangli. Last year she is a very silence person and do not talk to others. But now she talk quite alot and we(our group) play together as well.
Now she knows how to "shoot" ppl le....

As for me, my results improve a big gaps... Both my accounts and costing both score very high marks ( 96 and 98) and waiting for taxation results... i have set my own goals. The first goal is to go ploy of course, or else i really dun kmow wat to do....

Hope the 5 of us can really stay on together as i got a bad feeling......

Messy

2008-06-01T13:45:00.000+08:00

Long time did not type le, too many things to type out but out of sudden i am lost. I do not know
where to start.

I had read through all the blog that i had post wanted to add or amend but since is already over den forget it ba.

On 30-may-08 23:35, i had saved a msg of my thought i my hp. The msg is : 有时候我觉得我很像 yan ling一样都背扶着不必要的抱. For the past few days, i was troubled den suudenly thought of the above msg. But ever since i go bugis with my mum, i got an answer and so all my trouble flew away.

Yesterday i had told angeline and i feel that the feeling had come back. I mean good feeling, haiya i dun know how to describe la......

Not Feeling Well

2008-03-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

I have fall sick le due to 熬夜. That day when i and her so call quarrelled i already fall sick le but nowadays getting worst. On the 24 night after surfing net i laid on my bed but i can't sleep till morning 6.30 den i call fall asleep but i woke up at 7.30am due to i working at 9am. I having flu plus my throat not feeling well too, did not go see doctor.....

My School Friends

2008-03-25T01:18:00.001+08:00

I had also a group of friends(sisters) in school. I can say that we quite close la. We share our problems and joy with one another and also tried to help one another if possible. Before the school close the 2nd day mei poh, liang li and i had misunderstanding. Cythia had told me what had happened, wanted to msg mei poh but dun know wat to type and finally got a chance for me to talk to her but because i was too tired due to workin overnight shift that is why i only msg her regarding the cert only.

Mei Poh is someone who really cared for others for example our study. Whenever we are late or did not go to school, she will not happy. Actually is not her problem(study) but she cared, i really really like her alot as whenever u are with her, she can make everyone laugh till crazy, she will not leave anyone out de plus she cared for us.

One year had passed, and almost all those groups in my class had almost go separated except my group. We are still together, i am very gald that i had this group of sis with me in school.

I hope we can continue to study together

My Forever HOPE

2008-03-25T00:59:00.000+08:00

This afternoon when jac told me wat she had sent to her, i knew that i had broke their friendship but i tried to tell her that no need to make untill so serious.

I had msn to her this late afternoon and jus now saw her replied and i realised that she oso 蛮在乎她们之间的友谊地。Jac thought that she willl not care de, but actually she quite care de unless is overboard that is hard to say le.

When i saw her replied, i called to jac and let her know about it. I feel that if beacuse jus a small matter and end friendship i think is not worth it. I told jac that she oso 在乎their friendship as she said that now i am breakin her and jac friendship. Jac is now sleeping so i hope i can receive good news tmr.....

All of us are actually cared for one another de, i really really hope that our friendship can be like 缘之会 last for so long. I hope for it is because is hard to find real friendship and i believe that we actually had build a strong bond between us. I really dun want to break it. To say the truth, i really really treasure them alot, alot more than i had thought.

Seriously, if i lose one of them, i really really dun know what to do... Hope will not happen this anymore.....

FINALLY

2008-03-24T00:31:00.000+08:00

I thought i could control my tears but while talking to my friend i cried out le. My i really wrong?
What should i do and wat can i do?

难倒说珍惜朋友也有错？还是我太过珍惜了？

I believe myself

2008-03-23T23:52:00.001+08:00

I believe my myself that i can be trusted as i dun spread around unless there is third party who knows already the stuff before i know anything.

Really hope someone can help me on this things. Hope i and her can be close friends again....

My Heart ia aching

2008-03-23T23:15:00.000+08:00

Jus now talk to her at msn, wanted to ask her "how got ask someone to replace your work" but ended receive a sentence "i dun care wad u think but u make me dun trust u again".

I had told one of our friends about her things, but in the begining she already knew the past things that's why i told her but jus a phrase " she dun even know our current situation" makes me feel that is my fault. Ok lor, my fault lor....

Because she knew that's why i told her. seriousely i dun feel like update her bout i n that guy things, that's wat she said. Ok lor my fault.

I felt happy on that day when they both finally meet up and talk, wanted to share this happiness but cause no one knew her things except this friend that's y i told her.
At least her things finally we know where her problem lies on and finally she can try and open her heart and mind to so call reslove her own problem. I really felt very happy on that day but now she no longer trust me anymore so wat is the point of begin friend when there is no trust....

I almost immediately cried when i saw those phrase.... I already not feeling well le but now....

Really dun know wat to do le since she say like that.. My birthday is coming next month wanted her to oso join us to celebrate my birhday so wanted to ask her "how" but in the end, we become like this really dun know wat to do...

Feel that this birthday might be more happening as all of us are gathering and seriously wanted her to celebrate my birthday as well but she is workin, now hump, haiz really feelin very sad plus dun know wat to do and how to face her le.....

Don' Know What To Say

2008-03-21T01:33:00.000+08:00

Finally they meet up and talk le... haha... but haiz, got a bit regret to do this kind of meeting if i knew that she already got the answer. All along the while she told me that she wanna an answer from him so that she can 死心 and because she 不甘愿. but... i tink i had made her more sad plus angry ba... i send msg to her "sorry" but she had not reply me maybe cause her fone spolit ba...

Now is her own problem le.... I jus want all my friends or anyone that is beside me to be happy, is jus so simple... i dun wan anyone to be unhappy or 苦恼....

Interesting

2008-03-14T01:34:00.001+08:00

A Friend that... (A)ccepts you as you are (B) elieves in "you" (C)alls you just to say "HI" (D)oesn't give up on you (E) nvisions the whole of you (F) orgives your mistakes (G)ives unconditionally (H)elps you (I)nvites you over (J) ust "be" with you (K)eeps you close at heart (L)oves you for who you are (M) akes a difference in your life (N)ever Judges (O)ffers support (P) icks you up (Q)uiets your fears (R) aises your spirits (S)ays nice things about you (T) ells you the truth when you need to hear it (U)nderstands you (V)alues you (W)alks beside you (X)- plain things you don't understand (Y) ells when you won't listen and (Z)aps you back to reality

RETRIVE

2008-03-06T15:38:00.000+08:00

When i was searching for my foolscape to revise my work, i found something which reminds me of my "SLK" members(freinds) in year 2005... (tink is tis year ba)

A song and a cheer that created by my sister, Jacqlyn. We are using the rhythm of the korean drama “大长今” for the song

SLK Cheer

Haha, Haha....
Do you know that we are Siao Lang Keng? (hahahaha)
We are crazy and super lame (hahahaha)
We are here to make you laugh (hahahaha)
Doing crazy stuff lyk bang the wall
Haha Listen up!
If you 烦 us, we'll scold
你那妈！

SLK Songs

Siao Lang Keng (x2) 我们 siao lahx!
白天想晚上想想去 K-box
Siao Lang Keng (x2) 唱到很 high
High 到连时间都通通忘掉

Hey ya (x2) 谁能给我力量？
路漫长爱漫长全都散啦！

不要哭(x2) 我的最爱
一首歌一句话就是天涯
不要哭(x2) 望着星空
看月亮看星星想着我们

Siao Siao La (x2) 快点 ki xiao
打电话说说话保持联络
电话响(x2) 赶快接听
说一声我爱你带来温暖

Hey ya(x2) 不要失去联络
路漫长爱漫长只要相信
Hey ya(x2) 爱能给我力量
路漫长爱漫长心中有你

My Sad Day

2008-03-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

Today did not go to school as i could not wake up. After i woke up, i went to have my lunch and play muisc while revising my work. I msg michelle, jun jie and yong sheng that we will be meeting at 5.30pm at amk mrt station but later part michelle cannot make it and so extend to 6.30pm.

So my family and i went out to have our dinner and after that i went to meet them. At first we really dun know where to eat and ended up we went to pizza hut and eat. Jun jie nad yong sheng are really brothers as they are saboing each other by adding more chilli and cheese to each other pizza. Yong shen even worst, he took pepper and add to jun jie's pizza... haha, he still ate it..

Both of them after eating and drinking, they really went out w/o paying.. In the begining i thought jj would pay for the bill so i actually wanted to walk out of the hut but michelle was standing in front of the counter dare not go as she was not sure if it had been paid, so we went and ask the crew but those crew was also blur, they like didn't know that we are about to step out of the store... haha.. Ended up michelle who was the one paying...

We really dun know where to go. Yong Sheng and i actually planned to go Hong Guan which is beside the cinema but michelle dun wan, she wanted to go k box instead(yesterday confirm and change). Then we walked to amk hub, jj dun wan to go k box and pool ended up going to aracede playing. After that, we walked to mrt station as jj dun want to go those places so michelle decidede to go home instead as it is wasting time (is true la). If i were her, i will feel that got a bit not sincere la as the card did not write anythin plus is like everythin no ready and not in place lor. Jus that the 3 of us hold on the card together and pass it to her lor.. Wanted to make fun of her by buying love box for her, but the scenery and the scerenio is like no kick lor..

We waste time standing there den finally u left back to her home...

I and Yong sheng actually had a plan after we had asked yee siong on 25 feb if he is free today. Then i went on to ask jac and steph since already asked siong along,. but yesterday got a bit disappointed as both jac and siong can't make it when michelle wanted to have them around and oso i oso not happy cause is like long time no see le but ended up like both can't make. Jac got her reason so no choice. Haiz....... Steph, can't confirm wif me on sunday but today oso gt no news lor... Whatever la ok...

Saw my secondary classmates at the aracede, they are emmerline, patrica and pearly.....

Today overall celebration is quite sad, boring and is like nothing...........................................